The closest I've come to that is still rather divisive: the wounded kid with the snarling protector is the deepest I've dug thus far. And that, still, is for the purposes of dealing with difficult social situations and trying to reprogram myself. I figure I'll get closest to seeing my "core" once I'm able to react to touchy spots without consciously suppressing one and summoning the other. Or, perhaps, the part of me that knows what to summon and what to give a time out is my core, but works so much behind the scenes that I hardly notice its stage-ninja presence?
Going back to a point before I was fucked-up, just being, acting and exploring? I still think that confronting What Happened To Us allows us to seperate What Happened to Us from Who We Are, once we figure out What It Changed and Why It's Not Working Anymore. I'm not much for running around and screaming "I'm cured!" at every breakthrough, because I've seen what happens to people who assume that they're over something -- they rarely are. But recognizing that I'm probably going to be on a path towards getting back to ... Eden, my Core, the Tao, Who I Am? I don't know if I'll ever get there, but I think that you're right: that association makes sounds correct to me in ways I can't quite explain.
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Date: 2003-04-30 10:58 pm (UTC)Going back to a point before I was fucked-up, just being, acting and exploring? I still think that confronting What Happened To Us allows us to seperate What Happened to Us from Who We Are, once we figure out What It Changed and Why It's Not Working Anymore. I'm not much for running around and screaming "I'm cured!" at every breakthrough, because I've seen what happens to people who assume that they're over something -- they rarely are. But recognizing that I'm probably going to be on a path towards getting back to ... Eden, my Core, the Tao, Who I Am? I don't know if I'll ever get there, but I think that you're right: that association makes sounds correct to me in ways I can't quite explain.