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kickaha ([personal profile] kickaha) wrote2003-11-12 01:03 am

Night of ghosts

I read it.

And I'm shattered.

His last entry was in '97. In '94 he said he missed me, and our conversations. I had just moved to North Carolina to start graduate school. It was also at that time that I realized he was mortal, and that he was going to be gone some day... so I started pulling away. Consciously, to ease my own pain.

It was the last thing I should have done. I robbed us both of time together that I'd give anything to have back now, even for a moment.

I'm sorry. I'm so very very sorry.