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Back to life...
So, Grandpa's dead. One of the major figures in my life, gone.
And I'm almost... happy. When Mom gave me the news it was like I'd exhaled a huge breath I didn't know I'd been holding. I realized this morning that this gave me a sense of *rightness* somehow... that while the world seems a bit dimmer because of his going, it released the pain he was in. The balance shifted to the positive because he left behind the good he did, and the influence he had on all of us, but let go of the pain.
He's at peace, and rest, but the lessons he gave me still live on in me.
The world's still a better place for him having been in it.
Thanks, Big Guy.
And I'm almost... happy. When Mom gave me the news it was like I'd exhaled a huge breath I didn't know I'd been holding. I realized this morning that this gave me a sense of *rightness* somehow... that while the world seems a bit dimmer because of his going, it released the pain he was in. The balance shifted to the positive because he left behind the good he did, and the influence he had on all of us, but let go of the pain.
He's at peace, and rest, but the lessons he gave me still live on in me.
The world's still a better place for him having been in it.
Thanks, Big Guy.